Thank you everybody, i totally understand what you mean and lately i have thought about it again and i probably would have another dog in the future - a nice Red Boxer!!
It's funny i've always thought when you get something new something else must pass away. (Like a life for a life) (okay i've got a warped sense of everything!!)
But Lilly was going to be born and we found out about Ross's tumour and he very nearly died, then as soon as we had Merlin i knew that within the next month Ross was going to be leaving us, i just knew it.
I have heard Ross 3 times, the jingling of his collar and his feet on the utility floor and i still say goodbye to him when i leave the house and tell him i love him, he's still very much in all of our hearts.
We now have his ashes back, which has lifted a major weight off of my mind, i don't feel as bad about losing him cus i know he's happy where he is and that he'll still be looking down on Lilly and I protecting us from whatever the world may bring us.
